What's My Age Again?

This place is just crazy. I've been in Pensacola, Florida since April, and its just getting ridiculous. I am basically living the college lifestyle, and I am just too old for that at 25 (almost 26!) Its just such a strange situation and I'm wondering when I will get my life back and return to a life where its not commonplace to stay up until 1 am watching movies and drinking beers. I always prided myself in being the responsible one and not living any sort of excessive lifestyle...and yet, there is something to be said for the party-hard lifestyle. Well, I guess I wish that I had experienced it about 5 years ago and gotten it out of my system and then at 25 I can be a more mature woman.

I'm sort of blathering on here, but I just have a lot of crazy thoughts running through my head. Of course I want to go home and go back to being plain old Kate, but part of the appeal of this school and how its so easy to get sucked into the whirlwind, is that I feel young and pretty, things I haven't felt in a long time. Its nice to be popular (though for the wrong reasons-boobs shouldn't be the only reason people pay attention to me) and its nice to think that people are interested in you.

Also, have a new love for rap once again. I wish I could break myself of it...just can't. Had to confess that. I'm currently listening to a mixer of assorted inappropriate rap songs that a friend copied for me, and I worry that I may never return to the old Kate as I listen to these songs.

Despite this stream of consciousness (I got 4 hours of sleep last night and its bed time) I guess the upshot of what I want to say is that although I am wildly nervous about getting married, I can't wait to be back home with Marc and return to my old life. That is where I was happiest and I just want to go back there!!

Happy Monday

I hope that everyone had a nice weekend. I was a total beach bum, watched a ton of movies (including the Da Vinci Code, which I give an "eh") and had yummy cookout food. That to me is a sucessful weekend!!

I don't really have much to write. I logged on with a plan and now I'm out of things. So I guess I'm just saying hi. I miss my kitties.

Countdown 37 Days

I logged onto TheKnot.com this morning and realized that our wedding is only 37 days away. That is insane to me. I remember worrying about it being 100 days away!! If only we had that much time. I'm so excited about getting married and starting a new chapter in my life. Not trying to be sappy, but I think that it is really cool.

I'm really sick of being in Florida. I never thought I'd say that I am looking foward to returning to Maryland.

I'm both excited and nervous about the Marathon training. Our official start date for training is June 26, two days after the wedding while we are on the cruise. We'll run on the ship but not the long runs, so we'll do a little pretraining now to get ramped up. I just hope that I finish the race!!

Gotta run, I'm actually in class but its boring the hell out of me!

The First Step (to by folllowed by many more)

Today I signed myself and Marc up for the Marine Corps Marathon. I'm very excited as this is another one of my goals that I set for myself and I intend on keeping. My only goal for the race is to actually finish it before the course is closed. I'm already nervous and I know that this will be difficult, but this is a challenge that I really want to overcome.

2006 really does seem to be my year, so what better way to round out the experience? I'm also really looking forward to training with Marc too. He is such a great runner and he really helps me through.

I'm also wishing Sarah well, even though it looks like she might not be doing the MCM, I know that she will be a great to her partner in training and will kick Philly's butt this year.

Oooh, last thing. I have to admit that it gave me a thrill and a half to sign up as Kate Burgess. Woo hoo!!!

I UnQuit!

Ok, I'll stop being a baby. Marc was so sweet to me yesterday trying to ease my troubled mind. I don't know what I would do without him. I'm just so homesick-its kind of funny, I haven't felt this way in a long time.

I hope that everyone has a great week!

I Quit!

I am just so sick of everything...and I do mean everything that I just want some sort of repreive from being me. Nothing seems to go right and I just keep making stupid decisions that make me worry if I even have a brain in my head. I have a terrible sunburn, because of course, I am some sort of idiot who thought it not necessary to spread sunblock all over my body b/c I thought I had a decent base tan. What is wrong with me? I know that is a bad idea, but in the heat of the sun and the desire to be beautiful for a stupid wedding I think that I should just get cancer. The best part is, when this sunburn peels, I'll be back to my white skin, surely to look beautiful in my dress...yeah right. I'm so pissed at myself.

Second, I have been a total jerk to Marc today b/c everytime we start doing wedding stuff, I feel overwhelmed and sick and tired of doing it. Marc has been pushing me today and just kind of being a pain and I'm fed up. He wants all this stuff a certain way, but hasn't spearheaded any way of getting it there. I just want this wedding over. Its so flippin hard to do all this stuff especially when our wedding is far from the house, and for that matter so am I. I assume that it will all be worth it, but it seems from our RSVPs that no one can come to the wedding anyway, so it should be a really fun time. At least it will be cheap if no one shows up.

For Sarah, I'm putting a picture of my ring on here. As of this moment, its the only thing that makes me smile. That and the "There Ain't No Bugs on Me" doggie on tv.

I think Marc also forgets that today is Mother's Day. My mom died in 2001 and frankly this day just isn't fun for me. The whole wedding planning without my mother isn't fun either. This is certainly not how I envisioned this.

I just want to go home!

Sunny Days, Chasing the Clouds Away

Despite the fact that the weatherman called for rain in Pensacola we had a beautiful weekend. I spent Thursday at the beach too, which was pretty nice, and although it rained on Friday for a little bit, it was really nice and I met some friends at a Mexican restaurant for Cinco de Mayo and we had a good time. I had to get up super early on Saturday to run the Fiesta 5k. I set a PR, though it wasn't spectacular it was an improvement and I look forward to my next race so I can beat this time. On Saturday night I went bowling with a group of guys from class and we had a great time. I bowled some of the best games of my life, though I got progressively worse while the guys got better-I think that beer was actually improving their game while I abstained so I didn't get any extra "liquid confidence" in my bowling. Oooh, I forgot, after the race on Saturday I spent about 4 hours on the beach and looked like a lobster for the rest of the evening. I also had a yummy sushi dinner at a fun restaurant and I've discovered that I am hooked on sushi. I love it so much and I don't think I'll be able to have too much of it when I go home and that makes me sad. I feel like I am writing in stream of consciousness right now.

I finally got my engagement ring back today. I hadn't realized how much I missed it. I realize that it is silly, but I miss Marc a little bit less b/c I can look down at my finger and it makes me think of him and smile. He also sent me some yummy muffins in the mail and he did a great job baking them-better than I do so I wonder what naughty high-fat ingredients he put in them!

I guess that's all I have to say right now. I'm heading to the gym as I'm trying to get rid of my flabby arms!

This & That

I've been keeping myself fairly busy and haven't been a very good blogger. AMO school is driving me nuts, but I'm doing really well in class so I guess its ok. I just wish it was over so I could go home to Marc and the kitties.

My running is going...well, ok. I've been running every Tuesday with a running club in Pensacola, and I've got just 4 runs left until I get "shirted" which is that I get their shirt and then I wear it to get discounts at the pub that its associated with. I just want that shirt!! I've also been running about 2 times a week on base, but I have plantar faciaitis (I used to be able to spell that right) and I'm not having the best of times with my foot. I got it because I have to walk about a quarter of a mile to class-no big deal, except that I'm doing so in heels, which is giving me the pain. I am now in the market for some slip on tennis shoes. We'll see how that ends up.

Wedding planning is good. I bought my shoes and jewelry this weekend and it excites the heck out of me. I'm ready...heck, I've been ready for years. Still have some nitpicking things to finish up, but I think everything will work out swimmingly.

I had best get going. Class starts in 20 minutes and I haven't brushed my hair yet!

Happy Days!!

This week has been a long one. Its been kind of hard getting adjusted to being away from Marc and the girls, but I think I'm starting to slip into a bit of a routine, which is nice. We had our first exam in class today, and I missed 3 out of 50 so I wasn't too upset. I'm only mad because I had the correct answer for two of them and then changed them at the last second, so I would have only missed one had I just trusted my instinct!

I also got one of my grades back from Grad School. I got an A in my Organizational Behavior class for my MBA. I got 100%, which makes me happy, though we don't have +/- grades so no one will ever know. I will though! Very nervous about getting the grade for my Program Management class...that was a very difficult class and was the bane of my existence the past several months. Thank goodness it is over now!!

Let's see. I have a decent weekend planned. I got all my homework done today so that I could play on the beach all weekend. Lainie and her family and I will go to Pensacola tomorrow and get some rays...I just can't get too many tan lines b/c I'm two months away from a wedding dress!!

Oh, other fun news to report. We went clothes shopping yesterday and got some really cute stuff. We both have lost weight and didn't have spring clothes, so it was a necessity. My sense of style has really changed in the past several months, and I even bought, are you ready?, a half sweater. I make fun of people for those but my friends all said it looked cute and it was pretty cute so I went for it. I also bought a really nice white dress that I am going to wear for the honeymoon. Such a pretty fun summer dress...I can't wait to show off my tan.

I'm doing great with the weightloss. I really don't feel too fat anymore, especially since we've been working out a lot and lifting weights as well. I haven't run since Tuesday...I'm having some trouble fitting it in. I intend on getting up at aobut 7 tomorrow and running though. I really want to run tonight but I'm waiting to go to the gym with Lainie and it also looks like its going to rain at any moment and I hate getting caught out there.

One question-does anyone have an opinion on Mp3 players or Ipods? I definitely need a new form of music player since mine is so big and bulky and doesn't play many songs...it used to be the top of the line...but 3 long years have passed. Thanks in advance.

Happy Easter (From Florida)

Well, this has been far from a happy Easter, but I think the day has gone as bad as it can already, so it won't get much worse. Let me backtrack a little here, I got to Milton, Florida yesterday afternoon for AMO school. I got here about an hour before check-in and they told me I would have to wait. I'd been in the car for 5 hours, and wanted to "cut loose" so I decided to go on a run around base and get myself acqainted with the area. I did run for about an hour (in 90 degree weather) and then I got back and checked into my room. Well, when I got to my room there was no electricity and they said it would be out for several hours. Mind you I've just emptied the car in the 90 degree heat and I'm still sweaty from my run so I must take a shower. Well, the bathroom has no windows so I had a nice shower in the dark. Thank goodness I eat my carrots or I wouldn't have even been able to make out the shadows! I got a stroke of luck next though because I decided to go to the Commisary and get groceries. They were closing in 10 minutes, so I was lucky that I got all the "fixin's" for lunch this week and cereal for milk, as well as an ungodly amount of rice cakes (so many different flavors!)

So yesterday was mediocre. Today is awful. Lainie and I decided that we wanted to go to sunrise service on the beach. I printed directions out before we left Maryland, talked to a couple of people and had it all squared away. Well 2 hours and $4 later (in tolls) we still weren't at the "Clam Shell" which was described to me as a big bandshell on the boardwalk. Then, on our way off this island (took us an hour to find the right place) we turned around in a parking lot and I saw this little tiny pink clamshell in the distance. We decided that there was no way we could have missed a boardwalk, but we went over towards the clam shell. Then we see this big sign that says "Boardwalk" and about 500 people leaving the clamshell area. The "Boardwalk" was actually a strip mall, there is no pier or nothing. That clamshell is smaller than a shed. It was ridiculous. So Lainie and I drove to this other little empty beach that we had passed about 10 times before and said the Lord's Prayer in unison and then prayed ourselves. Oh, did I mention that we had been up since 5 am to get to this ridiciulous service? Both us had been hoping that the other would cancel, but neither of wanted to be the one to do so, so we suffered through. And that isn't even the worst part of the day. I get back to my room and Housekeeping says "Um, we found a roach in your bed". I said "ok, get it out and all its little friends". They are not allowed to spray and they'll have to get the place fumigated and I guess that they are all out of rooms so it looks like I'm in the roach motel. Oh well, not like I didn't pick up enough germs at the Waffle House where we ended up for our Easter Breakfast. That was a disaster and I'll save the social commentary for another time, but lets just say that we left that with full bellies and broken hearts. It was just awful.

Now that I got the computer working though, I'm in a better mood. I think I'm going to try to get some ironing done (oh who am I kidding, I think I'll fluff the stuff in the dryer) and take a little nap or something. I'm going to wait until about 5 pm to run. I would have done it this morning but by the time we got back we were so hungry we didn't know what to do with ourselves.

I miss Marc a lot. I don't like being away from him because he makes me happy. But I also have to remind myself that we get married in less than 10 weeks!