Thursday, October 05, 2006

Body Issues

This morning was a rough one. I put on jeans (though its Thursday, I have a terribly long day and jeans were the decided attire for it) and an orange sweater. I left the house. Then I turned around at the end of my street b/c I looked down at my huge thighs and said "there's got to be something better than this." I went home and kept changing pants for about 10 minutes and finally, in tears, I put the jeans on that I had been wearing. I get to work and I ask my cube mates, "are these jeans terrible?" They were like "no, but the sweater is too short for them." ARGH!! Do you do that? You "marry" yourself to one particular article of clothing that is actually the problem? The sweater is cute, but it just doesn't go with lower waisted clothing.

I'm starting to get nervous about my impending social situations of the weekend. I am going camping with people that I don't know very well...and that makes my nerves go insane. This is all part of getting outside of my comfort zone. This is WAY outside too.

I've also decided that I'm such a fatty that I have to go back on Weight Watchers. I've gained 10 lbs since I returned from Florida, and I haven't be exercising as much as I'd like to. So I am recommitting to the weightloss and fitness effort. I'm not too far from my goal and if I could lose 80 lbs, then I can lose 15 more.

Hope everyone has a great weekend!


Sarah said...

YOU ARE NOT A FATTY! You looked amazing on Friday! I know what you mean about clothes, though; sometimes it's hard to be a woman...

Missy said...

I know just from pictures that you are not a fatty, even if I didn't see you on Friday! I didn't realize that you had lost 80 lbs before, that is great. I am very sure that you are not fat, even if you felt you were having a "fat day" (I hate feeling that way)!