Its a Though She's Trying to Kill Me

This house thing is getting to be too much. It's 1 am, I can't sleep, and I should be celebrating right now because our offer was accepted. However, the seller's realtor seems to put a monkey wrench in anything she can to get us to not get this house...but has no problem selling it to others. I'm starting to think it's a race issue and I'm getting pissed.



Here's the deal. We put in a low offer on this house a few weeks ago, expecting a counter, or even a rejection. We get nothing. NOTHING. So we talk about it and decide that since this sale requires Third Party Approval, that we'll put in our high end offer and just wait. Ok, so this is what we do. All of a sudden, the seller accepts it and says we have 30 days to close. We gently remind her that we need the Third Party Approval (TPA) and she signs an addendum saying that we don't have to do all this stuff (appraisals, inspections) until the bank approves. DUH. So on Wednesday I get a call from our Realtor saying that they approved the sale on the house for our asking price, but that they would not cover closing costs. We look at our finances and decide, you know what, we want this house, so we'll accept the Bank's offer, good to go. Our Realtor calls theirs and has to leave a message to accept. Then our Realtor goes online and looks at the listing. The Seller's agent has posted online that the Bank has approved the sale for "Blank" dollars and won't cover closing. Hurry up they want to close now. I'm sorry, but isn't this our offer to respond to since we have a contract in? Fast forward to Thursday morning, when she calls our Realtor who asks her why she has changed the price of the home, as well as volunteering our offer to others. Their Realtor says, "Oh, if they want it, just give me an offer of "5K less than Blank" and we'll get it ratified, etc. Our Realtor says that we accept this price and we'll send the paperwork. We get the stuff signed and then Mircea says to me "why would they offer it to us at 5k less than what they offered yesterday?" Good question. So our brains are just spinning right now. Of course I signed the papers yesterday that said the 5k less amount, because that is what the Realtors discussed, but why the heck would that even be the case? Why would they give that to us? I really think she made us do a counter offer to wait for another offer and start some bidding war. Why would she do this? I mean, am I supposed to trust a woman who it appears really doesn't know how to do her job? Why do we get a special deal? Why the hell couldn't we have just said "we'll do the full price", but who in their right mind would do that when she made that offer to our Realtor?



Ok, I know that I probably sound like a ranting lunatic, but what the hell is this? This is already the most stressful thing I've ever done in my life, I'm borrowing from my retirement to do it, I'm taking a huge step with my boyfriend, and I can't get straight answers from anyone. If we lose this house because of this 5k difference, I am going to fall to pieces. To pieces. I'm already there because I have no idea what is going on, and in a great turn of events we're coming into a long weekend so I shouldn't expect anything until at least Tuesday, and oh wait, their realtor is a psycho so who knows what this whole set up is.



So that's why its Friday morning, 1 am, I'm on the verge of tears, I can't sleep at all (this is several days now) and I'm putting all my trust in a woman who it seems doesn't want us to have this house. I don't know if I need a hug, a drink, or someone to just tell me what the heck is going on. I know that it's going to be "ok", but if it's "ok" without us in this house because of a measley 5 grand, I think I will curl up in fetal position and not come out until Mircea finds some other house for us to buy. I'm done. I have expended everything I have into this and I'm pulling from reserves to get my work done at the office because that has been really stressful as well.

House Update: Frustration Edition

Yeah, so I missed Movie Monday. I have a lot of other things on my mind right now, namely that we put an offer in on a house that we LOVE. We put the offer in last Thursday and gave them 48 hours to respond. They didn't and on Monday we called the Realtor again. Turns out, it is a "short sale". By definition that sounds like it will be fast. Nope. The exact opposite. Short sale means that the bank is willing to let the owner/seller come up short on their mortgage just to get it off their hands. So its like a foreclosure in the sense that the bank has to approve the purchase, but it's a little better in that the owner hasn't destroyed the house out of anger and malice out of losing their house (they destroy it because if they can't have it, no one can). After doing a lot of internet research on this thing, it seems like it will take awhile to get an answer back from the bank and they could jerk us around for awhile. We really want it so we're willing to wait a while, but in the interim we'll continue working the renovations in our house and also keep our eyes out for other stuff. You'd think it wouldn't be that hard to find 3 bed, 2 1/2 bath, 2 car garage, with a basement...but you haven't been to Southern Maryland. That is practically an anomoly, but my Midwestern friends can attest to the fact that its pretty much the only option.

So we're frustrated, still hopeful, and focusing on our own house for the next few weeks. This is definitely trying my patience, but we'll get through it and we'll get the house of our dreams-this one or something else we haven't seen yet.

I have a lot of other posts I'd like to make, but I have been so busy that I don't have the time to update them. I have a recipe for schnitzels to share that I think people will enjoy, and I've tried some new vegan treats that I'd like to share with everyone-the non-vegans will love them for sure.

Feeling Less than Wonderful These Days

I know that I have put on weight. I realize that all the hard work I've done is thrown in the trash (or in my mouth) and that I have a lot of work ahead of me b/c I really do want to live a healthy lifestyle. I do. I don't know what happens when I put all this food in my mouth and sit on my ass (though I do exercise a fair amount, I seem to still stuff my face)

So here's the picture that make me realize I'm fat all over again. I will admit, that the pants are a size too big so that helps add girth, but who added my huge belly? Oh wait, me!

I hate being fat. I like to exercise, and will continue my exercise class and swimming in the morning, and hopefully running once we figure out what's wrong with my knee.

Right Foot, Left Food, Breathe In, Breathe Out

I've started running again. I didn't realize how much I'd missed it, but judging the size of my ass, I've been away much too long. I ran on Tuesday and it went much better than I expected. I was able to do a run/walk that consisted of run 5, walk 3, and I felt pretty good about it. I'm going to start following the Couch to 5k running plan, but I'm going to start on Week 4 to help avoid injuries, etc. I felt really good running and although there was a lot of extra jiggling I hadn't felt in a long time, I felt strong and peaceful like I always used to when running.

I'm sick and tired of this yo-yo diet/exercise bullshit. I am so upset that I commited 2 years of my life to getting in shape and forming proper eating habits, only to throw it all away since going to San Diego (like the healthiest place ever) and moving back to Maryland. I don't know if it's just that I've been so busy with school and trying to be a good "house girl" to Mircea or if I truly was just mawing down food and leading a completely sedentary life, but I'm just so fed up. I'm the fat/skinny/fat girl. I'm the one people talk about and say, "oh she's in her fat season. You should see how nice she looks when she isn't a pig." I'm just ashamed of throwing away all the hard work that I did. I know I'm supposed to get up and brush myself off, but it's so hard. I want to be the beautiful, strong, fit girl that I was going into 2007. Now I'm a scared little fat girl who is afraid of her own shadow and lost all the confidence of the woman who was happy and in love.

I am sorry I'm so "weepy" or whatever the hell I am anymore. I want to just enjoy my life, not be in this constant state of flux. It seems like I can't get all the variables lined up at the right time. When I'm happy I think I don't deserve it and I push it (or feed it) all away. It's just ridiculous and I wonder when I'll ever just be back to my old self. The old self is the person that is happy and confident and active. Not this blob of a person I've been on and off for the past several years. I'm so frustrated.