Recommitment

As many of you know, I am a huge fan of Weight Watchers. I've lost 62 pounds to date on the plan, and hope to lose more. I have been very frustrated and I find myself slipping into my old habits, especially since the race. I find that I am just wolfing my food again and not waiting until I am legitimatly hungry to eat. There is some legitimacy to my eating though-I feel hungry all of the time and just want to keep eating. There have been many nights that I've said, "ok, no more food" and then I am just starving all evening. I decided to put a list of reasons to recommit to Weight Watchers and my motivation for doing so (many would say the wedding is enough!)

• I have never felt better about myself then on the days that I eat healthfully and exercise. I get such a "high" from following the rules and exercising.
• I'd really like to get down to a size 8. I feel I deserve that.
• I'd like to not just "lose weight" but get "fit". I'd like to see some muscles peaking out (or just blatantly obvious)
• I'd like to complete a marathon this year. I'd like to do so in a reasonable amount of time
• I'd like just one person to say "wow, I wish I had a body like Kate's" that's such a silly thing to wish, and yet I'd like to feel that feeling. Just once!
• I'd like to get my eating habits under control. No binge eating, no junk food. I'm pretty good about this, but I'll find myself eating a can of olives, for no particular reason.

This list of goals didn't really come out how I wanted it to. My motivations are simple. I'd like to have that same good feeling I used to have when I first started losing weight. I honestly feel heavier today then I did 62 lbs ago-and I realize that is just crazy but don't know what to do about it.

I just don't want to be fat anymore. I look fat in all the pictures on this site, and that picture of my running was a real wake-up call that I am still quite heavy.