Thursday, March 23, 2006


As many of you know, I am a huge fan of Weight Watchers. I've lost 62 pounds to date on the plan, and hope to lose more. I have been very frustrated and I find myself slipping into my old habits, especially since the race. I find that I am just wolfing my food again and not waiting until I am legitimatly hungry to eat. There is some legitimacy to my eating though-I feel hungry all of the time and just want to keep eating. There have been many nights that I've said, "ok, no more food" and then I am just starving all evening. I decided to put a list of reasons to recommit to Weight Watchers and my motivation for doing so (many would say the wedding is enough!)

  • I have never felt better about myself then on the days that I eat healthfully and exercise. I get such a "high" from following the rules and exercising.
  • I'd really like to get down to a size 8. I feel I deserve that.
  • I'd like to not just "lose weight" but get "fit". I'd like to see some muscles peaking out (or just blatantly obvious)
  • I'd like to complete a marathon this year. I'd like to do so in a reasonable amount of time
  • I'd like just one person to say "wow, I wish I had a body like Kate's" that's such a silly thing to wish, and yet I'd like to feel that feeling. Just once!
  • I'd like to get my eating habits under control. No binge eating, no junk food. I'm pretty good about this, but I'll find myself eating a can of olives, for no particular reason.

This list of goals didn't really come out how I wanted it to. My motivations are simple. I'd like to have that same good feeling I used to have when I first started losing weight. I honestly feel heavier today then I did 62 lbs ago-and I realize that is just crazy but don't know what to do about it.

I just don't want to be fat anymore. I look fat in all the pictures on this site, and that picture of my running was a real wake-up call that I am still quite heavy.


Marc said...

First of all, the new blog template looks great. Very clean!
And second, you're doing great on your fitness plan. We've known from the start that it's easy to get discouraged near the end of weight loss. You already know you can do this- look at what you've accomplishd already! We just need to focus a little. I love you!