Life is Very Precious

Last night I definitely had the closest call of my life and it really freaked me out. I almost wish I had experienced this before my whole Florida disaster because I wouldn’t have had such a lapse in faith.

Last night I was running down my road that has a pretty decent shoulder. As I was running I noticed this van barreling down the road. No big deal, everyone speeds, and I kept watching him. Well he kept heading right for me; in fact, he swerved as though he was trying to hit me. I literally had to throw myself out of the way into an embankment and I looked over to see that his car was driving where I had just been standing. I saw the look on his face as he was coming at me: pure terror, as if he was thinking in his head “Holy shit, I’m going to kill a woman tonight”. It was pretty freaky and I was kind of pissed that he just drove off, but I think it was out of fear. There were skid marks on the road that I saw after I left. Scared the crap out me for sure, but the adrenaline fueled the rest of my run (I was only halfway through but what good did it do to stop? I still had to get the 3 miles home!)

During those couple seconds where I thought I might die, my life really did flash before my eyes, just like they say in the movies. I saw Patty, Lindsay, and Sean (the good one, not the California no-email a-hole!) for brief flashes, but I saw Marc the longest (of course). I saw our engagement and I saw the birth of a child (not ours, we don’t have any) but he was sure there. I flashed to a quick flash of us old in the car too. It was creepy as shit and it really shook me up, especially considering I gave up on that future.

We all know that we shouldn’t take our lives for granted, but it really gave me a jolt. It made me realize what is important in life, and how if these people made it into my flashback, they are definitely worth holding onto. And if you didn’t make it, it doesn’t mean you weren’t worthy. Luckily I didn’t get hit, so I only had a couple seconds for the flashback, not several dying minutes on the side of the road. I’m considering it a fluke though-I’m going to keep running there and being ever-vigilant. That’s the only way I made it out this time!